Owning ALL of Ourselves!

Well, here I am sitting in amazement at how long it’s been since I’ve posted anything. Where on earth does the time go? I have a very fulfilling life. I ooze gratitude for it. And if there could be more hours in a day, I’d take them! I’d likely use them to laze around and goof off…and I’d take them none the less!

So I am moved to write today because of something a dear friend of mine wrote a day or two ago. He wrote about owning ALL sides of himself. The enlightened one AND the online game addict. (very readers digest extreme paraphrase there)

I started thinking about my life. I have MANY interests and passions. I am not one to “do the grind” of what is “expected” of me by anyone. I tend to dance a jig to my own inner drummer. It’s how my energy flows. And I own it. Except…… that I find that there are little pieces of me here and there that my gremlin says thing about like “well, that’s not a mind-blowing enlightened thing to do…what will people think of you if you “just” do that?”

I then argue back with my little inner demon…”just?  did you say JUST? Are you kidding me? Step back B*aaaatch and get YOUR issues out of MY way!”

Here is what triggered my little inner demon. I happen to love, and I mean LOVE things that are colorful and creative, and that feed my soul. I indulge in them. In specific for me, it is jewelry. I’ve been making it for years, occasionally I sell it, yet most recently I have fallen in love with a line that because it is a tad pricey, I became a rep to get a discount and have found that I LOVE sharing it with other women.  Top this off with the fact that I am also a huge fan of creating a warm, enveloping feeling of love in my home, which is partially created with scent, and so I am a huge fan of candles etc., and…my love affair with a line of wickless candles, landing me in a rep “job” with this company as well. Again I love sharing it with others who like it as well. I love the connections with like souls….it feels GOOD to mine! And I meet a lot of wonderful people….

So a friend of mine said to me last week…..”I thought you are a Life Coach?”  I replied “yes, I am.” She said “then why are you bothering doing these other things?” My answer: “Because I love them…they make my soul sing”. She says “you’d rather do sales then coach?” I said “I dont “do sales“…I dont sell   by standard definition of the word….I share something I am passionate about, and the products sell themselves.  AND I coach, which I also love.”   In addition to these passions, I also kept a portion of one of my old careers and have an amazing bunch of women (for the last 15 years) who I still do their nails. (I call them the Magnificent Divas) YES FOLKS…I am also a nail technician! I can create a competition quality set of acrylic nails! (and yes…there ARE such competitions!)

As I am writing this I am realizing that over the past few years, while in training for Coaching, Leadership and various metaphysical studies….I had been denying this creative side of myself in public. This is similar to when I left my Accounting career to got to cosmetology school and my father nearly had a heart attack!  You see, when it was time to go to college, I wanted to study art and social work, and my father said NO WAY…you need to be able to feed yourself now go study accounting and business. I was 18. I said “OK”.  I had a good career in that field for years. So you can imagine his shock at my decision to follow my soul’s desire. Fact is, it turned out to be a journey of LOVE as I created an amazing sanctuary of a spa/salon and I also showed my father  that I could make a living with a brush in my hand. (for me it was the acrylic sculpting brush that got me high…no pun intended…LOL) And isn’t any job in the cosmetology field THE combination of Art and Social Work? YES it is indeed.

So….here I am again. I AM still following my hearts desires….I love being a rep for Silpada Designs (jewelry) and for Scentsy (wickless candles) and I love to Coach. And I still love doing nails too. I’ve noticed that I havent been talking about these other parts of me so much within my professional coaching community. I had made up the assumption that they all feel so f*cking serious and intense…and my playful artsy side will be frowned upon. YEP…that is what I had made up.

Today I am here to say….I dont care. I am me. I am playful, creative and artsy….and I COACH. Perhaps not in the same way many others do….and so what.

What I am realizing as I am wrapping up today’s post….is that nowhere in here did it come forward that I was holding back my intuitive side….huh. That is interesting. That no longer feels like an issue…I can own that now and it must be integrated as it never even occurred to me to be connected to my little gremlin as it was so strongly before. I love that!

Bottom line folks: OWN yourself and ALL that makes up you. DO NOT be concerned with what others might think. If you are passionate about something….if it feeds your soul…sing it out. And do not be surprised when like souls enter you circle….it is meant to be.

WhaaaaHooo!

“Batman” Shows Me The Way…. :)

I am currently in transition. Professional and physical. And in honor of being in transition, I am also taking a bit of a sabbatical. This is new for me. It’s taken me a good month to settle into. You would think that having the “gift of time” would be a fabulous, and EASY thing to be with….and for me, it is only NOW just starting to become so.

I was raised to believe that hard work (and being able to take care of yourself)  is what is important in life. This is in part because I was raised in what I now refer to as “survival mode”.  My father was disabled when I was 8 and I am one of 5 kids, so long arduous story short…I was told in my senior year of HS that as soon as I graduated, that I needed to immediately get an entry level job in a good corporation with full benefits, and to start paying room & board. And so at 18, I did. Not complaining, this is what our family situation called for. From there, I’ve worked 2 or 3 jobs at a time for most of my life and by the grace of god, I’ve always been successful at what I’d chosen to do. And I’ve always had fun.

Fast forward MANY years, a ton of stress (lol) and two great, almost grown, kids later….and I find myself at midlife with time to reflect on my life, both past experiences and future possibilities. You would think that having the resources to finally take a few months off the hamster wheel of life would be a happy joyous, gleeful time…..and yet, it took me a month to settle into! My worry gremlins were all over my ass saying things to me like “what the hell are you doing!?”, “you cant afford to do this!”, “you’re a big nobody!” “who ARE you!?” “Get back to work and do it NOW!” “You’re lazy!” “You’re a slacker!” “You’re getting fatter by the minute!” (that one is actually true….my advice to anyone who enters this transition place….KEEP MOVING your body even when you dont know where you are going in life! This is especially important for us women who are hitting midlife…. I am not sure who’s body that IS when I look in the mirror because it sure doesn’t look familiar to me…and that is a whole different post for another day. LOL)

Anyway, I spent the 1st month of this precious gift of time deeply steeped in the worry zone. Worried about the future. Worry, worry and more worry…about everything “unknown”. This came as a surprise to me, as I have always been a great crisis manager. Anything that could possibly happen in life…DID, and I could handle it! I know now, that this way of thinking and living was about survival, and while it’s great to be skilled in this area, it is NOT the same thing as being …..or living with ease…..especially, in the complete unknown. THIS is a way of being, that is new to me. I DO have an deep inner knowing that I’ve got full trust and faith in the universal unknown, and yet my intellect has trouble with it.

Becoming more present to my life and everything in it, I decided would be something to explore….while residing in this “gift of time” space. Hmmmmm. What would that require?

First off, I decided that it would require a laptop-ectomy. I no longer turn on my 5th appendage early in the morning. I come first. Meaning my morning rituals, and a cup of coffee withmy husband before he and my daughter leave the house. This gave me back about 5 hours a day or so it seems. (SO distracting is the web, with email and facebook and twitter….geez! We can easily become e-stressed while hiding from our realities THERE for hours! Come to think of it, I could likely become a millionaire by just creating a 12 step program around e-addiciton!….and this again, is a complete different post)

The second thing I decided to do, was to get OUTSIDE more. Simply taking a walk, is a great way to re-ground ourselves. And it’s free. (that was for my money gremlin!) Another benefit of taking a walk, is that we can engage in HUMAN CONNECTION! This is essential for our well being, and I dont care what anyone says, you dont get HUMAN connection from the internet. (interactions or more appropriately transactions yes, but true connection, NO)

And, finally….what has REALLY brought my awareness to the true gift of complete presence (in my “gift of time” space)…..is Batman. Batman is a 9 week old Shih Tzu. (hell, my eggs are dead, may as well BUY a baby!) He is SO damn cute and precious. And he requires my complete attention. And while I’ve had dogs in my past, I have never has this kind of time…to devote to a puppy. I am feeling gleeful. What I am finding interesting is that I can be focused on him, AND be at peace around where my life is right now. He is this little precious being…. unconditional love, with sharp tiny teeth. He is a great companion. (I am spending WAY more time outside!) He is not  a distraction around my contemplating my future….AND he is the catalyst for me stepping more fully into precence at this time in my life. I am completely engaged in his care and training and just loving him up. NO time to worry about the opinions of my damn gremlins!  All of those “you should be doing something!” messages….have WAY less of an effect on me now. I am currently enjoying this wonder of life. And, I am currently good with the unknowns of my future.

And….IN the future, when Batman will require slightly less of me and I move forward in my life….I’ll have a little companion to enjoy the journey with me!   Note to self: Shop for a doggy seat belt, ….it’s going to be quite a ride!

(my camera wont upload to my computer at the moment….picture of Batman to follow. He is black and white with a black “batman-like” mask, hence his name)

Got To LOVE Instant Feedback!

The body really IS an amazing thing. And so are our Guides! The Mind-Body-Spirit connection…also quite fabulous. We should all be listening to it at all times!

I’ve been in a bit of a funk as of late. I’ve recently finished a year long, rather intensive, retreat based leadership program, and am now in a space of “just being” for a bit of time. My soul loves to connect and play, so my “just being” needs a tad of adjustment so that I’m more fully honoring the connection/play piece of me. I know this to be true, because in addition to feelings of mild isolation, my unbalanced state is showing up in my body in the form of inflammation and achiness which can be tied to nothing else.

A friend of mine (and Mentor) had suggested to me that I should check out a program called InterPlay. She’s been suggesting this for almost a year. She says that based on my personality and soul type, I would LOVE it. I have neglected her suggestions until today.

So here is what I find interesting. I went online to check out the program, found that there is a bi-weekly class about an hour from me, and checked my schedule to see what I’d have to move around to make this happen. Yep I can do this. I will make the call tomorrow. I then head upstairs to my office to wait for a client, and notice that as I am heading up the stairs….my body feels really good. Light. Effortless movement. VERY DIFFERENT then I’ve been feeling for the past few weeks! Is it my imagination?

As I step into my office, still thinking about how good I felt physically (all of a sudden and seemingly out of nowhere) I get an urge to pick up a deck of my oracle cards and start shuffling. As I shuffle and start asking my guides for whatever info they have for me today….a card flies out of the deck and lands face up on the floor. And what do you suppose it said? ….. “INSTANT FEEDBACK” Ta Da! I started laughing, looked up and said “NO SHIT!” (My guides do not care if I swear) I stood there laughing, now with complete knowledge and trust, that this class is something that will enhance my life in ways I have yet to discover. Can’t wait to go.

LOVE the Mind-Body-Spirit connection! LOVE my Guides! And love Instant Feedback! Are you listening to YOURS?

PS: So, just as I go to post this, I had the urge to grab the deck to make SURE the wording was in fact “Instant Feedback”. I had intended to look through the deck one by one to find THAT card again since it had been shuffled back in…..and in my haste, a group of cards fell to the floor face down. I picked them up and turned them over…..and I’ll let YOU guess what words I stood there looking at. YEP…AGAIN! “Instant Feedback”! My JOY Guides Rock.

Peace Train

My dear friend Linda from Wisconsin sent me this YouTube clip. It contains a performance of a song that most of us Baby Boomers (and hopefully everyone) will recognize. The words…..speak wonderfully to what the mission of The Smile Tribe is about! For any of you following who don’t know what The Smile Tribe is….get with the program! LOL… Just kidding…and DO check it out: http://www.thesmiletribe.com

Here is the clip, ENJOY!

I’ve Been “Blacklisted”!

So…I get about a gazillion emails a day, many of which are marketing pitches. Ok, not really a gazillion, yet quite a few. I know I am not alone…you are likely getting them too.    :)

I got one today from a company that I know I have “unsubscribed” from before. So, today I quickly checked them out, confirmed for myself that I am not currently interested in their services and proceeded to follow their un-subscribe procedure.  During the procedure I was asked to give a reason for my action. So I did. I wrote the following in the box:

“It’s really nothing personal. I am not even sure who you are and do not recall signing up for your mailings. It may be that I did, yet I do not remember. In any case, I am cleaning out the email clutter and wish to be removed. ”  (or something very close to this)

Here is what I got back from them as a confirmation. I think it’s actully set into their auto-responder…

You have been unsubscribed from our newsletters and all contact lists.

 

  This is the last email you will receive from us. We have added you to our “blacklist”, which means that our system will refuse to send you any other email, without manual intervention by our administrator.

 

 

I am sitting here laughing. So, here is a company who is trying to build a bunch of loyal customers (who will REFER people to them), and when you ask to be removed from a list that you never signed up for in the 1st place…they “BLACKLIST” you!   WOW….what fabulous people skills!  I’ll be sure to remember them when I AM ready for their line of services. And what really amazes me here…is that the 3 guys who have created and run this business are, according to their bio’s,…all top business and marketing executives/ consultants.   LOL

The kind hearted person in me wants to point out to them that their choice of words in this procedure is…well,  just a tad less then customer service friendly. And yet, I’ve already expended enough energy in their direction. This was my chuckle for the day.

Off to Smile at Strangers now…..

Much Love & Laughter to anyone who reads this.

L

 

The HIGH of Being On Purpose!

You know you are on purpose when your whole body is a buzzing….and you want to hop out of your chair and jump for joy….and you have the urge to emerge  ….full of potential to make a difference in the world in which we live. Full of life, and full of love, and full of precious energy to gift into the world….when you want to dance, and sing, and PLAY and fly free with joy and wild abandon…..and radiate your love and compassion to every soul you can possibly touch.You know you are on purpose……when you feel as though you live…..to make a difference. WHEW! That is how I am feeling this morning. Smiling at Strangers…..has me feel high. Smiling at YOU…..has me feel Love.

A “Visit” For Christie N.

November 26, 2008

(Post from OLD blog) 

Well I started this blog quite awhile ago, then got busy with my life and neglected to come and start documenting my psychic happenings and experiences. I had one occur a few days ago while talking with a client of mine, Christie N. I’ve known Christie for a number of years now, although I do not know much about her life prior to the last few years. We are engaged in conversation, up in my office (which is also my “scared space” in a small apartment on the second level of my home) ….when the letter “A” appears to me. When I say it “appears”, I am talking about an internal viewing…somewhat peripheral. I ask her who’s name starts with A…she is confused, but then says “well, my mothers name was Anya, but she’s been gone for many years.”  I didnt say anything else and we proceeded into a conversation about her mother. While she was talking, the name “Anna Maria” came flying into my internal vision, initially from the right….up and over….zooming into that inner peripheral vision space. ( this is the best way to describe it…I wish I could articulate this better).  I said “who is Anna Maria?”

She looks at me….and says, “well, my mother’s mother was Ida Maria.”  Bingo!  As soon as she said that, I “saw” (in the upper right internal peripheral vision area) a rolling pin. Yes…a rolling pin. I asked her, “who was the baker?” She said “Well, neither one professionally however I just bought a loaf of Cardamom bread because I used to bake it with my grandmother. I sometimes find it sold around here, but it is never as good as the bread she made!”

We dropped the topic after that and proceeded to discuss other things. About 20 minutes later, we got up to leave, opened the door to the hallway and BOTH of us at once said “who’s baking bread?” as we were totally overcome with the most delicious smell of  freshly baking bread that I have ever smelled!   We came downstairs to where I live….opened the door to my apartment, and NOTHING.  There was NOT A THING in the oven, and no smells of any kind.

It was Ida Maria and Anya upstairs in my office….there to tell Christie they were with her.  I LOVE when this happens!

I will add….that Christie is a VERY funny woman, and when I told her that I felt her mother and grandmother were there with her, she immediately looks up toward the ceiling and said ” I swear mom, I don’t really LIKE  Sex! He makes me do those things!’  I laughed so hard I damn near peed my pants. Gotta love our funny friends, both incarnate and in spirit….. all are such a treasure.

“Stop…Look…Listen” Protection At Its Finest!

Orig date of this writing, October 08:

One morning back in September, as I awoke…I heard the words “stop, look, listen!”  Knowing that whatever it is I am “thinking” as I wake up from a deep sleep is quite often a message (I refer to this as “streaming vibes”)…I wondered to myself just what it was that I was supposed to pay attention to”? As I flipped the blankets back and swung my legs out of bed, I notice a bright red oval spot on my shin. It was odd. Not itching or swollen, but hot. Normally I would just blow something like this off yet I had just gotten the message to pay attention, and I was due to leave for a week long retreat in just a couple of days, so I followed my intuition to have it checked out 1st thing that morning.

The Dr. indicated that it seemed to be a mystery. Completely inconclusive. However, since I was about to travel he decided to treat it as if it were perhaps Lyme Disease from a tick bite and wrote me a prescription for 3 weeks of some mystery antibiotic. Well, about 3 hours later…I had developed a HUGE bulls eye rash and I was swollen from above my knee to down into my ankle. I went back to the Dr at lunchtime so he could see the progression, and was I glad that I did. He then noticed that in that 3 hour span, in addition to the shocking swelling, there was also a red streak traveling down my shin and pooling at my ankle. He then declared it a mysterious and venomous bite, perhaps a Brown Recluse and it must have just happened that morning. Long story short (er). Because I got the message to “stop and look”….I sought medical attention prior to the full onset of symptoms and had the meds in my body ASAP. This prevented me from having the disfiguring, long term, open gaping wound that is associated with the flesh killing bite. While I felt achy and arthritic for a couple of weeks, today, I have only an odd discoloration where the initial red spot was. I am so grateful that I listened to my guides as they were surely protecting me that morning.

OH, and I searched high and low for the damn spider….ripped apart my entire bed…and never found that dang thing. That’s when my husband said “how many spiders do they say the average person eats each year in their sleep?”  Bastard!  

Coming Out of The Woo Woo Closet

I had begun posting Intuitive stuff in a different blog (privately) last year. I have decided that I just want ONE blog for now…and will have an “Intuitive” topic here on my main blog. Here is the 1st post from that other blog. It is from February o8.

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I have officially stepped out of the closet with my Woo Woo. And, it’s both exciting and  scary.

Just what IS my Woo Woo? Well, its NOT a naughty body part like it sounds. (lol) I am referring to my Intuitive Abilities. I am ready now to own them fully and it has taken me over 40 years to get to this point in my life.

It feels good to be out.

My earliest recollection was at about 5 or 6 years old when I saw a face in my bedroom window on a pretty regular basis. Not a face looking IN the window…but a face that seemed to my 5 year old brain as what I imagined the man in the moon to look like. Sometimes I would look at it and wonder “is that real?” and when I would wonder that, the shade would snap itself up and, quite frankly, SCARE the HELL out of me! I would then yank the covers up over my head and not look out again. It was only last year, 41 years later, that my sister, (one year older then me), started to tell me about a face she would see in our bedroom in the SAME place I saw it…the light bulb went off…that WAS real after all!

There are so many things that have happened to me over the years, that I did already believe what I had seen was real…but when she shared HER story with me, it certainly erased ANY doubt.

Over the years I have read many books on the topic of intuition and all things psychic. My favorite author/teacher is Sonia Choquette. And through her and her guidance and teachings, I have finally decided to step on out of the closet and embrace this gift FULLY. I am currently a student of Sonia’s, having earned a Level 2 Six Sensory Practitioner Certification, and plan to continue studying with her to deepen my awareness and abilities.

The purpose of this blog (now this section in my MAIN blog) is twofold. One, I feel it will help me to embrace it more fully, by being able to document many past and present experiences. Documenting them, for me, makes them more solid. Getting them out of my head and out into the world, is a form of manifestation as well. I also hope to inspire anyone else who is out there, sitting on the “Woo Woo” fence….to hop off with me! I want to encourage people to embrace this gift within themselves in order to live a more joyful and satisfying life, guided at the very least, by your own higher knower. For ME, intuition itself is a big piece of my purpose, as I am “a connector”. This is a message that has been given to me in my dreams on multiple occasions. I used to think that this had to do with my love of people in general, and that it meant I was supposed to do work which would bring people together in both a fun and life-developmental way. (I am always ALL about having fun & human connectedness) I am coach, and was headed in the direction of creating a series of fun, interactive workshops…..and now I am having a realization that the message about being a “connector”….was not about connecting people together with other people (although I am pretty good at that) …it is actually about the connection between people and their higher support systems, their guides etc. So, in my work, the coaching I do with my clients, I am now more fully accessing this info for people, and it has been incredibly helpful as I coach people on their journeys to finding joy and purpose in their lives.

Well….this is the beginning. I will be using this (section of my) blog to record and share various psychic moments, and learnings, in my life over the years. Some obvious, some more subtle….but my hope is that as you the reader takes this in, it may inspire a memory or two for you as well….and encourage you to Embrace YOUR Intuition more fully!

With Love & Woo Woo to all!

Never Let Kitty Eat Easter Basket Grass!

OK, I must post this…it’s too funny not to.

So last year one of my cats must have gotten into my daughter’s Easter basket for some goodies.  I never saw him do this….very sneaky he was!  SO how did I find out? Well, Spaz (yes it’s an appropriate name) came hopping over me on the couch….looking behind himself as if he were being chased by someone. Then he lept off the couch and started running around the room….looking back…running some more….looking back….running some more….etc. I could NOT figure out what his problem was, it just appeared as if he were loosing his mind!

THEN….I noticed it! ….. The strand of green easter basket grass…..complete with a little chocolate egg-like attachment…..dangling from kitty’s back end!

I ran to the kitchen for paper towels….THE END.

Now…you may be thinking to yourself, what are the chances of THAT happening, right? Well they are better than you’d imagine.  Because the same cat had another incident like this a few years ago, except instead of it being a strand of Easter basket grass….it was the elastic string that held together the store roasted chicken that we’d had for dinner the night before. Imagine my surprise, AND the CAT’s surprise, as I went to grab it…..pulled (not knowing what it was yet) and it snapping back to hit Kitty in the a**!?

I promise to do my very best to keep stringy things away from kitty…from this day forward!

Love & Laughter to you….