Well, here I am sitting in amazement at how long it’s been since I’ve posted anything. Where on earth does the time go? I have a very fulfilling life. I ooze gratitude for it. And if there could be more hours in a day, I’d take them! I’d likely use them to laze around and goof off…and I’d take them none the less!
So I am moved to write today because of something a dear friend of mine wrote a day or two ago. He wrote about owning ALL sides of himself. The enlightened one AND the online game addict. (very readers digest extreme paraphrase there)
I started thinking about my life. I have MANY interests and passions. I am not one to “do the grind” of what is “expected” of me by anyone. I tend to dance a jig to my own inner drummer. It’s how my energy flows. And I own it. Except…… that I find that there are little pieces of me here and there that my gremlin says thing about like “well, that’s not a mind-blowing enlightened thing to do…what will people think of you if you “just” do that?”
I then argue back with my little inner demon…”just? did you say JUST? Are you kidding me? Step back B*aaaatch and get YOUR issues out of MY way!”
Here is what triggered my little inner demon. I happen to love, and I mean LOVE things that are colorful and creative, and that feed my soul. I indulge in them. In specific for me, it is jewelry. I’ve been making it for years, occasionally I sell it, yet most recently I have fallen in love with a line that because it is a tad pricey, I became a rep to get a discount and have found that I LOVE sharing it with other women. Top this off with the fact that I am also a huge fan of creating a warm, enveloping feeling of love in my home, which is partially created with scent, and so I am a huge fan of candles etc., and…my love affair with a line of wickless candles, landing me in a rep “job” with this company as well. Again I love sharing it with others who like it as well. I love the connections with like souls….it feels GOOD to mine! And I meet a lot of wonderful people….
So a friend of mine said to me last week…..”I thought you are a Life Coach?” I replied “yes, I am.” She said “then why are you bothering doing these other things?” My answer: “Because I love them…they make my soul sing”. She says “you’d rather do sales then coach?” I said “I dont “do sales“…I dont sell by standard definition of the word….I share something I am passionate about, and the products sell themselves. AND I coach, which I also love.” In addition to these passions, I also kept a portion of one of my old careers and have an amazing bunch of women (for the last 15 years) who I still do their nails. (I call them the Magnificent Divas) YES FOLKS…I am also a nail technician! I can create a competition quality set of acrylic nails! (and yes…there ARE such competitions!)
As I am writing this I am realizing that over the past few years, while in training for Coaching, Leadership and various metaphysical studies….I had been denying this creative side of myself in public. This is similar to when I left my Accounting career to got to cosmetology school and my father nearly had a heart attack! You see, when it was time to go to college, I wanted to study art and social work, and my father said NO WAY…you need to be able to feed yourself now go study accounting and business. I was 18. I said “OK”. I had a good career in that field for years. So you can imagine his shock at my decision to follow my soul’s desire. Fact is, it turned out to be a journey of LOVE as I created an amazing sanctuary of a spa/salon and I also showed my father that I could make a living with a brush in my hand. (for me it was the acrylic sculpting brush that got me high…no pun intended…LOL) And isn’t any job in the cosmetology field THE combination of Art and Social Work? YES it is indeed.
So….here I am again. I AM still following my hearts desires….I love being a rep for Silpada Designs (jewelry) and for Scentsy (wickless candles) and I love to Coach. And I still love doing nails too. I’ve noticed that I havent been talking about these other parts of me so much within my professional coaching community. I had made up the assumption that they all feel so f*cking serious and intense…and my playful artsy side will be frowned upon. YEP…that is what I had made up.
Today I am here to say….I dont care. I am me. I am playful, creative and artsy….and I COACH. Perhaps not in the same way many others do….and so what.
What I am realizing as I am wrapping up today’s post….is that nowhere in here did it come forward that I was holding back my intuitive side….huh. That is interesting. That no longer feels like an issue…I can own that now and it must be integrated as it never even occurred to me to be connected to my little gremlin as it was so strongly before. I love that!
Bottom line folks: OWN yourself and ALL that makes up you. DO NOT be concerned with what others might think. If you are passionate about something….if it feeds your soul…sing it out. And do not be surprised when like souls enter you circle….it is meant to be.
WhaaaaHooo!



